Wednesday, December 22, 2010

BOYFRIEND?

So, I Think I May Actually Have A Boyfriend.

We met on Craigslist of all places, and no, it wasn't a hookup. We exchanged a couple emails. Texted. Talked. Then we finally met.
It was a great first date.  We went to the mall and had dinner and saw a movie. Simple, right? And when we kissed at the end of the night, I think I floated a little. Then we parted ways for about two weeks for various reasons, keeping in contact all the while, and just yesterday, we had a second date. It wasn't quite as magical as the first, but we did have sex.

Part of me regrets having sex with him on the second date. I feel like having sex too early can jinx a relationship. But the other part of me is wondering if I'm putting too much into this relationship. I haven't had a boyfriend before. And though I feel as though we are making a great connection, he hasn't completely given me the green flag on him being my boyfriend. After we had sex, I asked him, if this meant we were seeing each other exclusively, and he was hesitant. Mostly because of the distance issue.

I stay about an hour and a half away from him. We meet in a city that is 30 minutes away from him, and 50 mins away from me. To me this works pretty well. A 50 min. drive doesn't seem like much to me. Though, I have been doing most of the giving and sacrificing in the relationship. I really like this guy, and I hope he likes me as well. We have a lot of things in common and when I'm with him I'm truly happy, but I can't shake this overwhelming sense of doom

He's A Little Reserved

I put my intentions out there, and let him know how I feel, more or less. But he doesn't. I feel as though he likes me, but doesn't say it. It's kinda like he's playing hard to get, and it is driving me crazy. Maybe I'm just being too expressive. Maybe I'm getting caught up in the fact that his is my first boyfriend. Maybe he should actually be my boyfriend before I label him as mine.    

2 comments:

  1. ARE U STILL SEEING HIM?
    In MY EXPERIENCE WHEN GUY DOESN`T EXPRESS HIMSELF IT MEANS HE ONLY WANTS TO HOOK UP,AND USUALlY WITH ANYONE THEY FIND HOT,NOT U EXCLUSIVELY.
    that`s what happened to me.reply here if u will,i`ll check this blog again.
    i have the same feelings as u do,i think we have much in common

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  2. I actually am still seeing him. . . kinda lol. I'll make a new blog about it. Sorry I missed your comment. It's been a while since I last blogged.

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